Category Archives: The Real World

The Trauma

I decided to share the blog and the response has been very positive. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about sharing the following story because it’s a large part of my journey and feels like the missing puzzle piece. I think the story explains my emotional journey over the past five years. I had contemplated sharing the story anonymously or publishing it on a different website. I’ve thought about sharing this story for years but I’ve held back due to shame and fear of judgment. I’ve reached a point in my life where I feel that sharing the story will help me move through the trauma and lift a weight from my life. I feel compelled to share the story now more than ever. With all that has happened in the past year, I feel more destabilized than ever and, oddly, I feel more in control of my life, my feelings, and my emotions when I write and share my story. I wrote the following a few months ago and have sat on it for a while. I’m ready to finally put it out there and move on:

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A rough spot

In one year my life has completely changed. In the span of one year, I have lost two relationships, lost my mentor and lost my job. That’s not to mention the death in the family and a family member’s bought with cancer. 2013 was not my friend. And to add to all of that emotional upheaval, I decided to move to a city where I knew no one except ex-boyfriend #3. Overall, and eventually, I truly believe it will be a great move. Right now, it’s a rough transition. I’ve been trying to figure out what the source of my anger and sadness has been and I realized that the overwhelming theme of 2013 was how disposable I was in every facet of my life. Continue reading